The weakest link

Patience is something I've never really had. I consider myself to be shy, boring and very short tempered. I'm insecure and have pretty much lost everything I thought I had gained while I was modeling. I'm vulnerable and easy to get talked into doing things I know I shouldn't do. After talking to my dad this weekend, I realized that I'm very susceptible to the devil. In my dads metaphor, I'm the weakest link so naturally the devil is going to attack me. I've got a lot of growing up to do (spiritually speaking). I'm not to good to accept what he had to say, because I know it's true, there's no need to deny it like I've done in the past. I've been in a spiritual battle for about 15 years, even though I became a born again Christian at 8 years old. I'm at a point in my life where I don't know where to go from here. I give everything to GOD, but still my patience is lacking. (Another aspect of my life that GOD is currently working on) I don't know what to do anymore. I try to make it seem like I have everything together, but the truth is, the devil is pulling me in 100 different directions. GOD has my heart, so I'm not sure why I'm the "weakest link". The past 3 days, all I've wanted to do is sleep. I've slept 25 hours in the last 3 days and I'm still tired. I try to keep my amour on but something always comes in between us. I have submitted myself to GOD but yet I'm still going through this. I'm sure there is a lesson to be learned here and I'm just not seeing it. I don't want to continue on the rest of my life being the weakest link, it's time for a change.