Making progress

I had an appointment with my midwife yesterday. They did the last required lab work which was negative. I'm going every week now to check for effacement and dilation. Yesterday she said I hadn't dilated any, but I was 50% effaced, he is still head down and has dropped and so has his heart rate which she said is normal and there is nothing to worry about. Eli is all ready to go, but we're just waiting on my body to say lets go.

The only thing that is missing is Eli....

I wanted to share some pictures that I took today. These are some of Eli's things.

 I hope he likes safari animals. And I can't wait to take pictures of him in his bouncy seat and swing!!

This is the design of his bedding, given by his great aunt Lori.

This is his 4 in 1 crib with change table that Jesse and I bought.

His bouncy seat given by his great aunt Lisa.

His swing given by his great aunt Debbie, and 2nd cousins Heather, Dixie and Leslie.

His pack n play that Jesse and I bought, along with his stuffed animals.

counting down and anxiety

I'm 35 weeks + 1 day today. The contractions are coming every day now, some days are more intense than others but all of them are painful. Even tho I know what to expect going into L&D at the hospital and also for the delivery (assuming that everything will be normal with no complications), I'm still anxious. I'm starting to have anxiety over how we are gonna make this work physically, emotionally and financially. The transition from none to one was extremely hard, going from 1 to 2 was a little difficult, but with Jesse's and my parents help we got through it. Now that the kids are school age, I feel like it's going to be less difficult physically but much harder emotionally. Eli will only be a few weeks old when school gets out for the summer. Thankfully, Nathan is an independent person and he loves to help me around the house. I honestly think he'd rather help me than play. Don't get me wrong, he loves to be outside and be a typical boy but he really does love to help me. Every night when I cook dinner he has to be right there with me to learn how and why I do things, but then he takes credit at the table and says, "yeah! I helped make that, isn't it good"? He is such a character and the most outspoken boy I've ever known. He is so excited to meet Eli and help me. Every time I have a contraction he gets so protective and asks if I need help or if he needs to call somebody if Jesse isn't home. Tori is more like me. She's really laid back and  she'd say something like "momma are you ok"? and then go back to whatever she was doing. lol  It's amazing how much I've learned from them. They have taught me so much and I'm so blessed to have them in my life. I could not ask for better kids!