Accepting reality

Fully relying on God starts with submission, you have to let HIM be in complete control of your life. I've realized that sometimes it's hard to do, but when you  know that HE has a plan for your life and you can accept that HE is in control, it's easy to do. Even knowing this, I found it hard to do the last few months. I knew that it was in my best interest to have a partial hysterectomy, but it wasn't an easy decision to make. It was selfish of me to not want to do it, because having it done meant that I would never be able to carry another baby. Even though we had made the decision to not have anymore kids, just the thought of not having the option to if we changed our minds hurt me. Having my tubes clamped last summer was the best decision for our family. It ensured that we wouldn't get pregnant again, but I also found out I had endometriosis (a feminine disease). I was miserable for months and the only way I was going to feel better was to have the partial hysterectomy. Since I'd had the clamps put on my tubes, I didn't see any reason to wait on having the surgery. I was really upset a few days before the surgery, but now that it's over, I'm at peace with it. I went to GOD with my concerns and I feel a lot better. No, we may not be able to have anymore, but GOD did bless us with 3 amazing, healthy kids. So instead of being selfish, I should have been counting my blessings.... all 3 of them. 

Using the armor of GOD

Romans 3:23  "For all have sinned and fallen short of the glory of GOD."
Ephesians 6:11  "Put on the whole armor of GOD, that you may be able to stand against the schemes of the devil."

I've been struggling a lot lately, physically, emotionally and spiritually. Just like a child is disobedient to their parents, I have been disobedient to GOD. Romans 3:23 and Ephesians 6:11 are 2 verses that GOD uses to remind me that no one but JESUS is perfect and that I HAVE to have GOD to win any battle against the devil. For years my relationship with GOD was bittersweet, but lately I've found myself relying on HIM for everything. I realize that I'm going through a trying time and I see this obstacle as GOD begging me to keep relying on HIM. The devil is still trying to convince me to give up, but GOD's voice is so much stronger! I'm holding on to HIM with my whole armor on ready for war! The burdens that I carry will be lifted from me and he will be defeated once again! I feel like I'm stronger than I've ever been in a spiritual sense because I have JESUS on my side. THANK YOU JESUS FOR BEING MY ROCK!

"To God be the glory, great things He has done;
So loved He the world that He gave us His Son,
Who yielded His life an atonement for sin,
And opened the life gate that all may go in."

Eli's 1st Birthday!!!

HAPPY 1ST BIRTHDAY! 

His 1st birthday was a success. We celebrated with family and friends and he loved his sesame street cake! Our baby boy isn't a "baby" anymore. 12 months worth of milestones complete, but so many more to come. Eli is walking a little, only a few steps here and there but like any kid his age he's more comfortable with crawling. He's waving bye bye and his newest word is bite. We asked him if he wanted a bite bite the other day and he said bite mmmmmm.  He's such a blessing to us, thank you LORD for entrusting us with him!